Could I possibly Be Bipolar?

Oh honey, you are seriously stressed. I do not know if you are bipolar or not as I am not qualified to decide such things but all this sounds really sad. And yeah, from what I know about bipolar, it seems like you could be (the cycles of high and low, extreme energy followed by extreme sluggishness, hyperactivity, depression etc). You need to seek professional help. Won't your mother make an appointment for you? Maybe you need medications. A doctor will be able to do an accurate diagnosis and prescribe them for you if needed. And yes, you are right, it doesn't get more extreme than attempting suicide, not once or twice but thrice. You are very young, you shouldn't have to go through so many negative emotions. You should be out there enjoying yourself, concentrating on your studies, planning for future, going on dates...you know just having fun. I think your childhood and all the changes have had an effect on you and going by what your mom said, some of it could be hereditary as well. I think its high time you seek help and get yourself sorted. The world is not such a bad place and it is worth living, you know. I noticed that you are very clearly aware of all the things that have happened, your reactions to those and you are able to talk about them clearly. This is a good sign. Acknowledgement is the first step towards feeling better. You will be able to feel better if you talk to people who understand and get the help you need. And noone is going to think you are seeking attention...i mean come on, this is so sad :(....You need to take care of yourself